Tonight is New Year's Eve, and because I'm still recovering from ear infections and Jacin is on call (currently out on a leak), we are ringing in 2011 at home. Oh well, at least I have some time to blog. :)
Every night when I rock Jackson to sleep, I thank God for the amazing blessing of a son. And then my thoughts usually drift to how much I love my JBird. And then I think about God, and how he gave his only son over to death for me. It makes me sick at my stomach to even think about doing that - giving up Jackson and allowing him to suffer and die to save someone else. I sure do love my Bird!
I don't think I'll ever be able to grasp how high, long, wide and deep God's love is, but JBird has given me a bit more understanding than I had before. And, I really don't mind the prospect of spending the rest of my life trying to understand and appreciate God's love for me.
My heart is full of thanks for the many many ways you've blessed me. Words don't come close to thanking you for Jackson and for the new insight you've given me. Thank you, God, that your love for me is unconditional and infinitely bigger and grander than I could ever imagine. Please guide my heart and life, and help me pursue your love and glory always.